christmas is best, white.

all of my friends think I’m crazy for loving you 
but they don’t know 
there’s nothing else I can do 

it’s too bad ‘coz love is blind

my make love song.

mymixtapeforyou:

careful what you wish for.

every day every night without fail.

(Source: i-cant-get-you-out-of-my-head)

you hold me without touch.
you keep me without chains.
i never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

today, i do something silly: look for you.

it turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you,
wishing i’d realize what i had when you were mine.

pleaseremembermethewayyoudonow
forimaynotbeasinnocentchildlikeanduntaintedasyouknowmetobenowanymore
shouldthisparadigmshiftofcharacterchangethroughmindfuckingcomestopass.

imaycavetothepoignanteffectsimayforget.

pleaseremindmeofwhoiwasbeforeasilovethewayiam.

butimafraidthewayiamishinderingmyfreedom.

utterlymindfuckedtosetmyselffree.

butimscaredimaymissme.

can’t wait to turn my life around.

wishing you’ll be in it.

for as long as i was her daughter with a self awareness of feelings plus realization of logic, dates, and occasions, she never failed to buy me a cookie and wish me happy valentines day every fourteen february.

oh mother.

And so i’m reaching out for the one
And so i’ve learned the meaning of the sun
And all this like a message comes to shift my point of view
And watching through my own light
As it tints the shade of you

it could be time. it could be the drugs. but the memory is starting to become a blur.

the day we met by the lift. to when you talked to me. to how you looked at me. to holding hands. all starting to blur. but your face still so clear.

i’d give anything for another moment with you. i miss you everyday but more so than usual today. it’s tragically past all logic and common sense how you occupy my heart the way you do. but you’re not here. distractions in bid to move on, different drugs to get by, mind in daily disarray, mistakes made in confused rebellion till this day. but it will always be you. it has never not been you since november two thousand and eight. 

my funny valentine of seventeen may, the love of my life: i’m still in love with you.

icecreamisbetterwithafork:

The upside to the crazy. 

You get sad. You get angry. You cry. 

And then you take that shiz, and you channel it into something, and come out on the other side, and you realize you dont need to take everything so serious. Gahhh. 

And the next thing you know, your laughing and thinking to yourself  ”Ahhhh, whatever…” 

And you become that girl that drives everyone crazy cause you cant make up your mind.

And you realize, that’s ok too. 

:)

dearest constellation, heaven surrounding you

secret fascination, whisper a quiet tune

hear me calling you

if only prayers were answered.